Mauriat Miranda     mjmwired

Before I Leave

My uncle passed away yesterday, while I am deeply saddened by the loss, I feel even more sorrow that he never got the chance to complete many things that I know he intended on doing.

So, I was talking on the phone with a good friend, and when the topic came up he confessed that whenever he hears of a death, he ponders his own mortality - wondering how much time he has. I don't know why, but for me, the thought that enters mind is "Did I complete everything?". Did I pay my bills and fold my clothes? Did I leave a mess for someone else to clean? Did I remember to say "Thank You" and "Sorry"? Did I leave everyone in a state where I could cause them no more worries?

I don't believe in the statement: "Live each day like it is your last". Even so, I feel it is disappointing that every day we worry about all things we meant to do yesterday. I think all the things people owe to each other, whether it is simple as money or as important as love and respect, should be given long before anyone realizes the bill is past due.

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  • deesto on February 3, 2009 ~ 03:15 PM

    I'm sorry to hear about your uncle. I am also guilty of worrying about all these things each and every day, when, in a perspective that takes everything into account, they truly don't matter all that much. If only it were as simple to change one's perspective as it is to acknowledge such a major flaw in one's reasoning …

    My condolences to you and your family.

  • ambrish on February 5, 2009 ~ 07:07 AM

    It has been grievous happening that I often feel one day one has to face, when I think of my parents. Of course, I wish for them longer and happy life.
    But, I am also of guilty of being a little bit insensitive as I was contemplating about the delay to my queries. I am sorry for this, I didn't think of it in the remotest terms.
    My condolences to you and your family members.